i put this on my myspace. but i thought i would put it here too.... my season of change. There is something so beautiful about fall. I guess I never really grew to appreciate it until I was older, but now I can say that I am truly in love with this season and everything that comes along with it. I am gazing out my bedroom window at the Wasatch Mountains, covered and dotted by red, orange and yellow leaves…and sprinkled by a light dusting of snow…I can hear my neighbors walking their dogs and the crunching of the leaves beneath their feet. This season feels so fitting to my life at this moment in time. Autumn is full of transitions. I feel this changing inside of me, like my youthful whims of summer moving towards the cooler, starker realities of life. No dreams have been lost. no vibrancy within my heart has gone away…just deeper, richer colors of some unknown future beginning to emerge within. Just like fall, I am in a season of change. I am moving to Nashville in a mere 11 days. Today I started packing my clothes and tucking my picture frames into the cardboard boxes that will make the journey with me. I've already said goodbye to one of my dearests [dani] and am getting ready to wave goodbye to those who have blessed my life and whom I have never wanted to leave. Im moving to Nashville with a definite fear, an excitement in my heart, and a stir in my soul. My fear is that I will change. Of course I know I will change, but i also hope i will grow. I believe there is a difference between change and growth. With growth you do not lose character, you only become a better versionof yourself, one that is able to handle more situations by learning through adversity or by finding out more of who you are. I think a good definition of growth is when you stop looking at other peoples paintings and how they were put together and just get right down to adding a little color to your own. A stream is always a stream, even if the darkness of night enfolds it. But when the sun comes out and light is shed on its waters, then it starts to glisten and you can look down and see its depth. This is when you really see what it truly is. That is what I have a desire for. I want to shimmer. That is where my excitement came in and the stirring of my soul was led by a hope placed in my heart to be a part of the music industry. Music has always moved my soul in a way nothing else has. It speaks to me in a way no other can. It is something God placed in my heart. It is the only thing I can truly picture myself doing and enjoying.
I guess all this to say that I am starting to look at everything as an experience and not as a valuable thing versus a regret. Because the truth is that we are human and in our humanness, to expect perfection will only leave you disappointed. It is through experience that you learn who you are, but more importantly I think you learn about love. You learn how to love better and I think that is the best thing you could hope for. so my friends, Sometimes when you look around you and nothing seems to fit, you just have to go, even if you dont know what is up ahead, because just taking that first step is a feat in itself and when you let go, you are never the same | 
